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Monday, 2 July 2012

IN EXILE


Jane Scott c. 1842
Thomas Griffiths Wainewright

You are smiling but
your eyes are no longer looking  for me
You think
I don't  see you anymore
-ha- as if it were
possible this
as long as you live!
You got what you need with you
I was unnecessary
I was intruding in your life
insignificant from the beginning ...
Now I 'm in collapsing
and you are hoping again
You could not feel, how happy I am for this
Even if I am doomed to disappear
Do not see me
do not look at me!
Continue to smile!
Continue to live!
I will be forever
hidden in the sad love song of the robin
as you walk in the woods 
sucking life
You probably would listen me
in the passionate roaring  
of the waves crashing on the rocks
Perhaps again you would not...
I am changing
I have been altered much in exile
I am no longer the carefree adolescent you knew...
I  am growing old and I fend off
irrevocably
You would not recognize me
I am learning now better
accompagnied by wolves
I am surviving through my bestial instincts


Sunday, 1 July 2012

SIDE EFFECTS


I'm jealous, unbearably jealous!
I want to take off your pretty eyes
which I adore
To hit you there
where you hurt the most!
I did not sleep last night floundering
We're not together and I was  seeking for you wandering
To be a little piece in your life at least
that's what I want
So curses I knit
I throw spells and I hate
whoever you give the privilege
to stay near you
I will all ruin them because of it!
I will plunge to their hearts my dagger
to take my revenge of  you
So that all barriers to be removed
and so you need to come and ask from me again
whatever they provide to you
 my sorrow!
To be me the only one to whom you kneel
But you're heartless
 you look at my loneliness with disgust
and you despise me twice
You just don't care even if my hurting wounds bleed
You forgot me
 just forgot me! 
I am mourning!
I'll never be there for you anymore!
You just will not allow it to me
even if my dreams are so benign...
Villain! 
I envy you
  you are indifferent
 you never hesitated to erase
from the blackboard of your mind
what  was written with a chalk
by the hand of my soul...
Villain!
I am just begging for a little niche beside you 
You keep depriving me from it !

Saturday, 30 June 2012

NEED TO BE BLIND


 Eugene Pierre Francois Giraud Blind Man's Buff Painting


Each day
I'm sneaking to see
Your eyes
My body aches for lust
but I manage'
I find solace in
unseen strangers
It is only carnal
a carnivorous hunger
for some flesh
With my eyes
closed  
I'm easily deceived
that they are You
and the material redemption
works fine for awhile...
I can not sleep though
for ever!
The problem could be solved
if I was blind
My living eyes
my Soul
seek for Your glance
to be defined...


WHEN YOU LOVE, WHAT YOU HATE ...


I need to shut up for awhile
In order my pain  to shake 
all those polite people- listening the within me wording- to the foundations.
I have now a duty regarding to them
They are devoted to me
stood by me
substituting you as a whole 
I will not stop talking because of fear
or because I did not find another way
-minor challenging-
aiming to avoid you
or because now the only thing I have to say is
a depressing nothing'
not similar in your own silence my own...
I will stop talking just  to forget
I must forget
Since my truth went away from you
thrown by you straight into oblivion deliberately
Collision to my unseen rival 
the famous arrogant and magniloquent
Mr Death
Always I was defying him
I was moking him' 
you are terrified by him
He charmed you more than me
pity!
I was not expecting this
I'm not like that
This is  probably what happened to us'
anyway you could blame me too...
Now I have to skimp my tongue
To be thrown towards different newborn and risky tries'
silent passion's excavations' voiceless flying and tosses
Spring passed and still I didn't  blossom
I cannot pretend the dead anymore
since I'm not
I am a tree with juices and roots
It happened  my peak to be broken 
by a wind in love
I quiesce  
I am sleeping 
but I create in secret lush stems
growing  straight through my Begetter the Earth
Finally I accepted you
hateful silence!
It is often possible to end up  loving
just that you insisted to hate!



Friday, 29 June 2012

LIFE AND DEATH


Fuck cancer
http://www.quitor.com/fuck-cancer.html



Are you dying or are you dead?
Choose
I chose 
Death is not the conflict
Life is the answer
as long as I can bear it
I will die living
If it is fatal
I 'll also fight to live dying.
I will never allow myself 
to be a living dead
or to be dead as I'm living
Life is the spacetime
Death is just a quantum defect 
among the sequence of his events 


CAGED


     Caged Tiger - canon 20d w/50mm                                                                                                                       

I'm drinking the Poison again
the bitter elixir of the Word
I am alone as I was born


I'm eating My Flesh again
my sinful Betrayed god
I'm alone till my days to be gone


Oh helpful sparkle of the Lust
deranged love of my Dreams!
You're standing now here-Don't Leave! 


I Need You I need you...Get Lost!      

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

TO COSMIC DUST

http://pichaus.com/collage-art-karel-teige-@3d00f8716725818a04efd327c0ff7e5f/

I can not Imagine
what supposedly you are Asking
from me
I am Available
to offer you
Joy 
Passion 
Adventure
Oblivion
You to explore in Me 
what you were Seeking for
and Never found
I am available
to excite your Vices and your Dreams
I am Not available
to offer you my Entire soul
I gave it Once
It became a haunting Nightmare
It became my internal Slavery
no matter what I cherished
I do not Want to be chained again
I want my little life Back
I need to be Alone and Free
I do not fear You
I am terrified by My lack of capacity
to restrain Myself in front of Eros
to Grab the Given by you
to satisfy my Possessiveness
to feel Independent in your presence
I prefer my Internal Loneliness
I was Born with it and I will Die in it
I have no need of fantasies of Pairing
no one ever could be my Soul mate
because we are made 
Unique and Incompatible
You could only keep me Company
and hold me for a while
to withstand and perhaps forget 
the Pain of being Finite
in a History where finally the Only thing 
which will be remaining 
is the Cosmic Dust in the astral nebulae





Monday, 18 June 2012

TO MY ABSENT THOUGH HUNGRY WOLF


http://gjwolf.deviantart.com/art/The-Perfect-Two-Riza-and-Wolfy-281123599




I love you though and 
when you are not here
I understand this much better
My logic try to restrain me but 
I see all the time in front of me 
your eyes in hunger 
persuading me again
I became so vulnerable 
I am laughing at myself
After all those lies I heard from others
and mistakes I made
I continue to trust  You 
as if I were completely naive.
It is amazing
but if you are the one I felt 
perhaps this is the only path 
to conquer you deeply 
See 
I want your soul 
even if you will never be mine 
I wish us to love eachother 
at least spiritually for ever
I wish you to be calm and happy 
to have your woman who saw in you 
and liked you a lot 
Who felt with her senses your needs 
and accepted them
Who wants you to reveal your greatness
in a higher level 
to express yourself until 
you have your soul released
Sorry if
I seem so erudite and verbose 
but I must somehow be defused 
because I am not there to act on you
I love you
but I am afraid
I am completely surprised by all this
I even blush to write all this
I tend to erase it 
but it hurts me...

HA!


Where are you? Gone!
You do not need  me!
See? Everything was  a dream
A useless dream
You did not die apart of me
Neither you will disappear because of it
I, I do not know 
Am I living ? 
Do I exist?
I became a tornado
to do not remember
Pretending to be God
by creating
by loving
by fulfilling your  prayers 
not mine
Still I am  looking for you there 
where I first found you
In vain!
Dreams if not shared
impossible to be conquered

Sunday, 17 June 2012

POETIC DIALOGUE BETWEEN FEDON THEOFILOU AND CHRYSSA VELISSARIOU


WORDS ENLIGHTENING
FEDON THEOFILOU


When the words take their place in a nice poetic body

they want to shine their autonomy
but also they contribute with their consistency
in the strong structure of the poem
Certainly there have been some words 
which stood out from the poems
and remained unspoiled forever
Not that they betrayed the body of the poem
Simply put 
their autonomy was greater 
than their offering in the consistency of the body
But once again they were carrying the poem
in their incorruptibility and  
they  glorified the same in fact
The words tend to make frill erotically with the lips
of those who pronounce them in reciting.
Words light colored like the senses
darker to give value to the nuances
blurry to hide what they imply
words like shiny pebbles wet by the waves
words wavy as if they were playing like an harp
the chords of the feelings
words which are stretching their fingers as the touch does
brash words like bullets
which activate new sources of thought
in the human mind or activate the old ones
Words which classify the senses
and the meanings in a musical development
Words which illuminate the Earthly and suspect the Unknown 
Words which reflect an "other" life
with the power of their secret flow
where the "weakness" is strength
and the face of beauty will be not getting older
Words which from the Sappho's epoch   to date
"are preaching the beauty" and deny the human destiny
fact which the Gods perceive as "hubris"
Words which from Euripides to Regas and from Regas to date
are burning for Eros
Justice and Freedom
Words which are arming the Dreams
Words which are flirting with the Impossible 
which are giving Condolences to Death
Thus the words all in  lines 
as if they were Notes
which the poet-musician is selecting
in order to knit the web of the creation
and to become a poem



CHRYSSA VELISSARIOU
WORDS GIVING BIRTH




When you speak

-Oh my fellow poet!-
your rational mind embraces
your passionate soul
Your Love is the Poetry 
with the Word as its Operator
You are speaking and
the Tones
which make up the words
are calling  every willing to Listen
everyone whose intellect has the broad resonator

to reinforce the cries of your writing

in coordination with your own frequency

You open your mouth to blossom
symmetrical concepts
passions 
expectations
By bleeding on paper
you paint colorful butterflies
Reflections on the Words
Lust through scriptures
Exclamations for  Pleasure
The Unfulfilled in syllables
The Contradiction of Death against a written History
The Unexpected Blissful  Storm of Eros
designed through Harmonies of Calligraphic Confessions ...

Oh my fellow poet!
You are shouting
you are reciting
for the pain to be heard
to break out and to be cured
That kind of pain 
which triggers the sensitive Imagination
You are flirting 
with the internal Struggle
through so sweet songs 
staying Sleepless
devoutly listening  
to that pluralistic Silence of Creation
by bewitching the Panic's serpent 
with the lumen of the Word


Oh my Poet!

Even when you nap some words
compose your own Visions of the Illogical
lined up or unruly
bitter or caressing
but always stripping
So delightfully heard
as if  your most beautiful poems
were born in dormancy
fatally to treat the Oblivion