Friday, 30 August 2013

John Singer Sargent: Nonchaloir

I'm frustrated

I'm exhausted

to cry out loud

so many times

to show to you in

so many ways

I cannot live

away from you

You think it is

better to be apart

Well you're welcome

to enjoy my death

I've said whether

I wish it or not

death's your absence

lack of water

letting me dry

unable of

producing any

kind of fruit

unable of

giving any

kind of love to

anybody

Your presence

extracts a

loving person

out of my soul

who encloses all my

being who's unable

to live in your

absence anymore

Thursday, 29 August 2013

Χ...αμογελούσες πατρικά πάντα, αν και καμιά
δεκαριά χρόνια μας χώριζαν.
Ρ...ωτούσες: "Είσαι καλά Χρυσούλα; Τι κάνει ο
μπαμπάς;"
Η...σασταν μαζί στο Θηλέων,συνεργάτες,
γελούσες μ' εκείνο το συνωμοτικό
χαμόγελο.
Σ...α μικρός μαθητής που έκανε αταξία-
παιδικό πρόσωπο με κάτασπρα μαλλιά.
"Τ...ο ανατινάξαμε το εργαστήριο τότε, ξέρεις;
Να προσέχεις πάντα το Νάτριο..."
Ο... κάθε καλός φυσικός δικαιούται μια
ανατίναξη!
Σ...το πείραμα πλησίαζες την ομορφιά των
νόμων της φύσης κι ενθουσιώδης
μοίραζες, ό,τι ένιωθες, στα νιάτα που
αγάπησαν το πάθος σου.

Ο...μως αρνούμαι να σε θυμάμαι μόνο για ό,τι
υπήρξες, Χρήστο,θέλω να σε θυμάμαι σαν
κάποιο που ζούσαμε το ίδιο όνειρο.

Φ...ίλο που θέλησε να μου πει για το τέλος με
τα μάτια κι αρνήθηκα να καταλάβω.
Υ...πεκφυγή ο τελευταίος σου αστεϊσμός και
μια φιλοφρόνηση.
Σ...τάθηκες συνεπής, κυνηγώντας το άπιαστο
έφυγες.
"Ι...σως να μη στείλω άλλο μήνυμα απ' αυτό το
μέιλ..." χαιρέτησες.
Κ...αι σαν αιώνιος έφηβος ταξίδεψες για
Ελβετία να επισκεφτείς το CERN...
Ο...μορφα τελευτήσας "άλυπος" , ωραίος!
Σ...ε προκαλώ! Σαν έρθω προς τα αστέρια
κάποτε, πόσα να έχεις κατανοήσει άραγε να
μου εξηγήσεις απ' όλα τους τα μυστικά;

(c)ΧρύσαΒελησσαρίου2013, 29/3/2013

WHAT A PASSION!

Alone Again by Jamie Lutz

I would like to bite you

To hurt with my nails your

sensitive skin

To make you scream out in pain

Painting: Jean_Jacques_Henner_-_Solitude

What a bloody torture

to be near and away

from a loving soul! So

difficult and easy

to touch another being

It does not happen

infinitely. Other's soul

escapes often through your

fingers just like the sand

You're suddenly a stranger

although an hour ago

you were a true soul-mate

Communication is

constant battle the deeper

you dig the harder you

must try to enter to the

concrete of the other's self

Does this worth so much pain?

Each contact is priceless...

Bright lightning on the dark

inside solitude's sky

(cc)

Sunday, 25 August 2013

I WON'T BE SAD!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/mbatchelor/2921688796/

I won't be sad anymore I will
never be sad! I will have you
inside me all the time
You are mine and you 're wrong
I was not guilty I've been never
mistaken this time
You were the killer, you were the rapist
You were the thief of my peace
I put the blame on you but I
forgive you because I know
how much in love and terrified
you must be to act like this
toward me
The only person that I would put my
life on bail to see you smiling
The only one who never would hurt you
I thought we had the same emotions
perhaps you are sure about my strength
too convinced I can better live
without you
So sorry you never understood
my part called "Beauty" is yours
and your part called "Satisfaction" is mine;
we would never live crippled
away one another
The only way to survive is to hope
at least our next hug.