DESERT (ΕΡΗΜΟΣ) VIDEOPOEM

DESERT

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Oh my hon wind!
Why did you come back?
Why are you blowing refreshing
outside my shutters?
I knew that you would come back,
but hoping
it would be for me.
You did not come for me.
You did not come to me.
You came just because it was possible.
You came to tell me that you won.
That there is hope.
You did not come for me.
I do not live here anymore.
Yet you did not even try
to see if I am in ...
Appearances are deceptive.
The bright lights,
The projections,
the noise,
everything  an illusion.
I just want to leave with dignity.

ME-YOU

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To understand is different than
to assimilate and to accept.
It can be different for anyone else!
Any other love could be, just as you think.
But I became yours with my conditions
and I was with you only through them.
Even if I want to cut my veins
'cause I'm in love's pain for you
now I can be me!-you lost me- 
I will be myself!

Let me be alone, I want to cry!
Undouptly
I was not enough for you to hold me.
You did not even like me as your slave...

Except
those wonderful couple of days.
For them I'm still paying.
For them you are still paying too.

You Never had let Me enter inside you.
You exercised temporarily
your tolerance on me,
you peeked into my being,
and you departed undisturbed.

You tried to install Yourself in Me.
You did not wish your soul to cohabit with mine.
You just wanted to confirm Your ego!

THE HOOK

You do not want me to be even your friend anymore
What a misery!
I did not understand ever this
How or 
why creatures
who came so near
have let time to intrude their closeness?
You deign an end to the meeting of souls
There was a rupture of the curtain of loneliness
how or why did not we let it there
even if it was in any form
Everything flows
but you still exist
How can it be you to do not need me?
This was all you felt a carnal need?
Flesh absent means self-negation?
You are addressing 
in pain
in joy 
to any one else except me?
What a frustration! 
What a castration! 
And why?
No matter with whom  I am
with whom I fall in love
with whom I die
I will be alone without your eyes
Perhaps  because primarily 
your eyes were always my need
That glance of our first contact is missing me.

THE PREY

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Oh I Yelled and I Yelled 
so heartbreakingly for Months
You Devastated my every Hope
I make no Excuses nor Apologies
I abandoned our Dream 
I stopped Waiting for you
I can not bear the Despair 
in this lonely Silence
It is this the Truth 
I've been given myself elsewhere
Deceptive for my kind of character but
-you know-you definitely Lost me
You can not claim me anymore!
Now that everything is going Better
if you search for me
you will not find me
I will Hide
I 'm sold body and soul
as a Slave
No longer I will be ever yours.
The End is confirmed 
the stamp is tapped
And the signature receipt 
won't be late to be signed
Yes! It will be put there too baggy wide
Eventually my Hero
you were not my Destiny...
We did not Deserve it or 
you just didn't Wish for me near you 
I don't know anymore 
The Old Wolf 
the black and white 
was watching for the Right Time 
hungry
I've been Chased by him and Enslaved
Now saturated he is devouring me in Calm
He feels Secure 
From him 
I will not be able to escape anymore
He provides me generously 
the Drug of the Oblivion

DO NOT TALK!

You try to talk with me ...

I talk with you ...

Deadlock!

Only the action

is innate 

in our relationship

Our  mouth is ignorant,

intangible,

awkward

when we try to speak

It is a simple tool 

for our loving 

cultivating

pleasure

or the art

of passion's vegetation

succeeding

in clarity

and willingness

-for variety-

the most thriving

synchronized

skills

of other

sensitive

body parts

Two creatures

drunk with love,

simple servants

of an ancient

winged

playful god

HUNGER

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My body thrives for yours
I walk and I feel you following me
I'm thrown in fire by your vicious wants
I smell and I taste 
your existence around me
How could you possibly forget me?
How can you withstand 
the lack of our passionate embraces?
I never believed you!
'Cause these emotions I feel 
could never be unilateral
These achy scratches on my back 
and those bites on my neck
these hands squeezing out 
my plumb bare breasts
this pleasure between my thighs 
never could be provoked 
only by my excited imagination.
It is you...
It is the animal in you 
which stayed near me
which never could instinctively 
move away from his lustful prey
Your soul and mind is connected with me
your nails are digging the walls 
which restrict your vents to me
When at last you get to me 
you will devour me
You are starving 
not being able 
to endure the famine of my absence

THE WIN

When you recover

if your Pain goes away
when Passions have been chased 
if you let Horror  
-in which you undergo-
go
Then  look at me
deep in my Eyes!
You will not be Afraid of
what you 'll see inside
You will Recognize
the look of mine
that one saying "I adore you"
which always  only with Truth
has treated you.
Then you will Sigh
and you will be in Peace
Then you will know
that your Loneliness 
was almost agonizing with me
and then 
you will Love me again
I Want this so much!
That way the day I'll leave 
to be met with the Unknown
I will at last have Won 
against My self

IN EXILE

Jane Scott c. 1842
Thomas Griffiths Wainewright

You are smiling but
your eyes are no longer looking  for me
You think
I don't  see you anymore
-ha- as if it were
possible this
as long as you live!
You got what you need with you
I was unnecessary
I was intruding in your life
insignificant from the beginning ...
Now I 'm in collapsing
and you are hoping again
You could not feel, how happy I am for this
Even if I am doomed to disappear
Do not see me
do not look at me!
Continue to smile!
Continue to live!
I will be forever
hidden in the sad love song of the robin
as you walk in the woods 
sucking life
You probably would listen me
in the passionate roaring  
of the waves crashing on the rocks
Perhaps again you would not...
I am changing
I have been altered much in exile
I am no longer the carefree adolescent you knew...
I  am growing old and I fend off
irrevocably
You would not recognize me
I am learning now better
accompagnied by wolves
I am surviving through my bestial instincts

SIDE EFFECTS

I'm jealous, unbearably jealous!

I want to take off your pretty eyes

which I adore

To hit you there

where you hurt the most!

I did not sleep last night floundering

We're not together and I was  seeking for you wandering

To be a little piece in your life at least

that's what I want

So curses I knit

I throw spells and I hate

whoever you give the privilege

to stay near you

I will all ruin them because of it!

I will plunge to their hearts my dagger

to take my revenge of  you

So that all barriers to be removed

and so you need to come and ask from me again

whatever they provide to you

 my sorrow!

To be me the only one to whom you kneel

But you're heartless

 you look at my loneliness with disgust

and you despise me twice

You just don't care even if my hurting wounds bleed

You forgot me

 just forgot me! 

I am mourning!

I'll never be there for you anymore!

You just will not allow it to me

even if my dreams are so benign...

Villain! 

I envy you

  you are indifferent

 you never hesitated to erase

from the blackboard of your mind

what  was written with a chalk

by the hand of my soul...

Villain!

I am just begging for a little niche beside you 

You keep depriving me from it !